Wednesday, October 27, 2010


What is that?
No that's not summer,
That's a nightmare,
2 months past 16 in court fighting,
fighting them,
fighting him,
why does he love to hurt me?
why does he get joy from it?
he hurts,
he hates,
I wish he loved me not hated me,
i loved you why didn't you send that back?

Monday, June 14, 2010


Prom was an awesome night I never thought I would ever go but I found this one guy that loves me and I return the feelings and so we went to prom together and had an awesome time it was set up amazingly and I don't regret a single minute of it. I can't wait to go again because I will never forget that night and the fact that there was only one person that could get me to dress up like that and make me feel like a beautiful princess. He was my night in shining armor and would protect me from the world and all the scary things in it.
♥ I love you Kris forever and always hun ♥

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

I'm sorry

We had it good,
then we fought,
are you happy now?
you said we had our own paradise,
well we found out otherwise yesterday,
it was bad,
the bad was my fault and i know it,
but you gave me a second chance,
I'm so very grateful,
I know I probably don't deserve it,
but you still gave it,
and I promise you I will never do it again,
you gave me one thing that I will NEVER take for granted,
your last name.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010


You can run,
You can hide,
But always can look,
And I will be by your side,
From end,
To end,
From top,
To bottom,
From the great blue sky,
To the depths of the bottom of the great blue ocean,
Look to your side,
And i will always be right there,
By your side,
On your side,
I will fight for you,
For your love,
For us,
For our love,
But only if you are willing to fight,
For me,
For my love,
For us,
Will are and will be,
Us not me and you,
But us,
What's yours is mine,
What's mine is yours,
We aren't two,
We are now one,
We will be together,
Together forever.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010


You're not physically here,
No you're in me though,
You're part of me,
Right? That is right isn't it?
I get confused,
About how to be here without you,
About how to live life without you in it,
It's like trying to learn how to do everything all over again,
I miss you and wish you were here with me again,
With us again,
We might not understand why,
We might not be able to explain why you left,
And we might not be able to explain anything about it,
But we do know that we miss you,
That we want you back,
And that we are sad that you left us

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Together Forever

She was scared,
She didn't know what she was going to do,
She asked him what am I supposed to do?
He said go,
He said go away,
He told her we will go together,
We will get out of here,
We will have a life of our own,
We will make it our own,
He told her "WE WILL MAKE IT"
He promised her life forever,
With nothing less,
They would always be together,

Friday, April 30, 2010

Happy Birthday!

Happy birthday to both of my cousins Jakob and Rachel!
Jakob my little man, my buddy, today you turn 2 years old,
it feels like just yesterday i was holding you and you were 2 months old,
you are growing up before our very eyes,
if any question about how fast you are growing,
we can all show you.
Now Rachel, my dear, my baby girl, yesterday you turned 3 years old,
you are doing so great walking even with the feet problems you have,
you are an amazing little miracle girl.
I can tell you both will grow up to do amazing things and be amazing people.
Happy Birthday and I love you. <3

Monday, April 26, 2010


I'm here,
But your not near,
I walk in fear,
In fear that you will come near,
I'm afraid you will come,
But I don't know where from,
I'm afraid you will hurt me,
For this is why I flee,
From you,
From the hurt too.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Sweet 16

16 years have come and gone,
16 years are leaving fast,
16 years and all I have is my friends,
16 years of a very hard time,
16 years and I can live,
16 years and living like $h!t,
This isn't right,
This isn't fair,
How can you just look and stare?
This isn't right,
This isn't fair,
How can you just look and stare?
A girl on her sweet 16,
And she isn't free,
She lives like a cloud covers her life,
Her sweet 16 is nothing but work with no play,
She hides behind the fake smile she does so well,
While she will always dwell.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Do You?

Do you love me?
Did you love our family?
Did you care if we suffered?
Did you even want to stay?
Did you purposefully go away?
These are a few of the little questions that go through my head,
As a year creeps up on us very fast,
I don't want to blame you because I know it's not your fault,
But at the same time I feel as though you left us without a fight,
Which I know is a lie,
You fought 8 long hard years,
But your killer was worse then a human,
It was the work of the big bad TOBACCO,
You made us loose him.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010


I'm haunted in my dreams,
In them I'm treated as a queen,
But I know it's just a dream because who would treat me anything but a piece of $h!t?
I try to make them happy by doing good and keeping fit,
But all I get is a kick,
They treat me like a piece of a stick.
I'm all alone,
I'm on my own.
All because you left.

Monday, April 12, 2010


Hun I love you,
You make me feel like I've never felt before,
It's amazing how alive I feel when you love me,
We are in love some people say it's not true but we know otherwise,
I love you,
You love me,
We are together and will never part,
"Till death do us part",
We will prove that true,
I love you,
You love me.


7:30 we got the news,
the best news anyone could get,
little baby Romeo was brought into the world,
at a total weight of 9lbs 14oz he is a miracle,
but we love him and we always will,
I am auntie and he is nephew,
I love you Romeo keep healthy and stay wonderful <3

my wonderful loving cousin

I love you dear,
I wish you were here,
I don't want you to walk away,
I wish for you to stay,
When you leave my heart will no longer beat,
So instead i will walk on these beet feet.

I love you kerri please stay with me cuzz <3

Thursday, April 8, 2010

i will miss you

You said you want to go,
You say you want to leave,
You tell me you can't be here anymore.
I said I can't watch you go,
I said I can't watch you leave,
I told you I understand but I can't live without you.
I will miss you,
I will still need you,
I know I can't live without you,
Not now not ever.
I love you and I can't let you, watch you, or live with you leaving me

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

my loving cuzz

You're leaving I understand but I know it's because you are doing what I told you to and following your heart,
You're leaving I should know it's going to hurt but still I sit here and won't let it in,
You're leaving and I know one day again we will be side by side together again,
You're my loving, caring, smart, and loyal cuzzin,
But wait that's not all,
She's my best friend and when I think all hope is at loss,
When I think nobody else cares,
She finds a way to say the excact right thing at the excact right time,
I love you cuzz forever millions of miles apart and we will still be as close as if we were right side by side everytime <3


We miss you Sky,
We miss you,
You were me first pet, the first one to ever listen,
You were my pup then my hunter then my friend,
We had you for almost 12 years then you left,
You lived long and we had fun,
We went for walks and we talked and played since you were little,
Then you left and it hurt but it had to happen.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Have you ever loved someone so much you just couldn't let them go?
This is how I feel now, So here's the story
I love my cousin very very much but she is moving away,
We have been through A LOT together and I find out she is moving but not from here I found out from her best friend,
I asked her about it and found out that it was true,
but i still don't understand why she didn't tell me herself,
It hurt me a lot to know we went through so much together but she is leaving,
It's her choice but she is leaving all her family and friends,
But what for?
Can anyone explain this to me because I don't understand it?
It hurt me so badly to the point she didn't want to talk to me when I wanted to talk to her,
I feel like I'm getting stabbed in the back because I help her but what do I get in return?
But her running away when I want to talk,
Although I am hurt and upset with her i still do love her because she will always be my family


You say I'm addicted,
I say I'm in love.
I say you're addicted,
You say you're in love.
People say we are addicted to each other,
But we say we are in love with each other.
You say we will get sick of each other,
But you don't even know how we really feel.
We go through life looking at the people that judge us,
And we smile at them.
I Love You Kris ♥

Friday, April 2, 2010

i love you

You make me love like I never thought was possible,
I hope you never leave me,
I can't imagine life without you in it,
You make me laugh when all I want to do is cry,
You turn the frown upside down,
You make me feel like I've never been loved before in my life.
I love you and nothing will ever change that ever <3

Thursday, April 1, 2010


I don't want you to go,
I don't want you to leave,
I won't let you.
You were here,
We went through everything together.
And now you want to just pick up and leave everything behind?
In less then 5 months I won't only loose my cuzz but also my best friend.
We can be completely dumb and look awesome at the same time.
I'm going to miss you my friend, my cuzz, and my everything.

Monday, March 29, 2010

reamake to you raise me up

You bring me up higher then the mountains,
You bring me up wider then the sea,
You bring me up so I can fly high-er the me,

You raise me up so I can see the mountains,
You raise me up so I can see,
You raise me up so I can walk on stormy seas

You raise me up by: Josh Groban

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

this is so true about my one person my life and soul I hope he will always be in my life no matter what. I love you Kris.

Friday, March 26, 2010

my best friend

ok so I have this cousin she is amazing we are always there for each other and i never want that to change but when she leaves I don't know what I am going to do without her here. This has been the one biggest fear I've always feared and it's coming true. I don't want her to leave but she has to. I know I won't be able to do this without her. I need her. I just lost one family member and now another? The worst part is they were both very very close to me. I can't do this without her. I need you here kerri. I can't do this without you cuzz. You're everything to me. I love you kerri but please don't go.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

my best friend

Have you ever had someone you love dearly leave? I have the most amazing cousin, and friend. Today I got the news. The worst news ever. She came up to me and told me that in May she was leaving. Leaving forever. I wouldn't see her again. We have been through more then anyone could ever imagine and now she is just going to up and leave. All because her parents are making her. I never thought I would have had to go through this but I found out today that it happens to all of us when we least expect it. I never thought I would have to tell her goodbye. I never thought that day would come when I had to tell her that I love her and I can't wait to see her again. I'm sorry peanut but I can't watch you leave after everything we have been through. I'm going to cry every minute of everyday and I won't stop until you come back home to me. I love you peanut <3

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

RIP Donald C Corson

You make me smile when all I want to do is frown. You make me laugh when I just want to cry. You make my whole day brighten up when I see you. It's different now though. You make me frown when I start to think about you. You make me cry because you're gone. You bring my whole day down now when I think about you because I cant see you. I know you're in a better place now but I still don't understand why you had to leave at such a difficult time. I miss you and always will. Grampa.

Monday, March 22, 2010


I thought I lost you. That's when I found out how much I really do love you when I thought about losing you. I realized that I just can't deal with that. I need you in my life. I love you. I dream you. and I wish you. You're the first thought in my head in the morning and the last thought at night. I love you like the sky. I love you like the wind. I love you like the earth and the holy sky above. I thought I lost you then I fought and won now I'm the happiest girl in the world again because I'm with you the most amazing guy in the world.

Monday, March 15, 2010

grampa i miss you

i miss you, i need you here, why did you leave me? i know you were very sick, i hope you feel better now, but i miss you, i wish you were still here, with me, with dad, with the whole family especially with grammy, she really needs you ya know. we all do. we miss you more then anything. for almost 16 yrs you were with me everyday then one day you just left and i didn't get to say goodbye. i know you're still here with me because i can feel it. i can feel you here trying to help me through everything but its not the same. i need you here. i miss you. i need you. why did you have to leave me? why did you have to leave us? i wish i could have said goodbye but i didn't get there fast enough after the phone call. i cry every night wishing you were here, wishing i could talk to you again, laugh with you again, i wish you were here to help me with everything thats been going on. i wish you were here but you don't come, i pray for you to come back but you don't answer, i want you to help me but i guess you don't want to help me.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010


i love you,
i feel safe with you,
in your arms i can drift away,
to a place i can't even dream of,
every time we are together i never want it to stop,
you're my night in shining armor,
you're the one person i feel completely safe with,
i love you like the sky,
i love you like the wind,
i love you more then the world,
hun you're my #1,
my life,
my heart,
my soul,
you are me.

Monday, March 8, 2010


i love you like the wind,
i love you like the sky,
i love you like the earth,
you are more important to me then anything and everything in the world,
my heart is yours forever and always,
it will never be anything less then yours,
i can make a few promises to you,
i won't hurt your heart as long as you don't hurt mine,
i will always be yours as long as you will always be mine,
so please don't hurt me,
i will always be there for you,
through the ups and downs of life,
you will never be anything less then mine,
i love you and that will never ever change.

miss you

I miss you,
I need you,
I wish you were here.
We miss you,
We need you,
We wish you were here.
Why did you go?
Why did you leave?
I have one last question for you before we end this,
Why didn't you stay?

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

My true feelings about him

i love him and i dont want to ever let him go he's my life and my everything i dont ever want him to leave my side i love him more then anything i love him more then the world if i had to choose between him or the world it would b him in a heartbeat im not sure what this is called but i know no matter what anyone says i'm in love. If you know what i'm talking about please leave a comment and explain what your going through i would love to hear it. :)

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

i love u hunny

i love u hun i miss u more then anything ur my life my heart my soul my reason 2 live everytime i c u i find a new reason 2 fall in love with u again its amazing and idk wat id do without u hun u keep me up wen im down u keep my chin held high wen ik it wants 2 come crashing down u r my every reason 2 b here i nvr want 2 no life without u in it

Saturday, January 23, 2010

my best friends

u guys keep me going everyday all day i dont know what i would do without u guys here with me......i hate to say it but u guys saved me i was on the edge then u came to my rescue u saved my life i love u guys forever i hope u r always in my life forever
this is for kris, kerri, ginny and nick i love u guys forever and always and thank you from the bottom of my heart :)

Friday, January 22, 2010


i love you for now i love you for always i love you forever and i love you through the good and bad hun i love you more then you can ever imagine i love you more then the world i love you more then the sun more then the stars more then the moon and even more important i love u moreeeee then ever nobody could or will ever change how much i love you you are my one and only you are my heart soul and YOU ARE MY LIFEEE i love you hun for now always and forever

Friday, January 15, 2010

my best friends

i have 2 best friends 1 of them is my fam and the other is my boyfriend they always lift me up when im feeling down they arnt like every1 else that kicks me around, i love them more then anything else they will never leave me on the ground they r my life my heart and my soul i will never leave them no matter how old. :) i love u guys <3

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

i love you for now and always

i love you for now,
i love you for always,
i love you 4ever hun,
you are my one,
you are my only,
i love you for now,
i love you for always.

i love you kris 4 now & always <3