Wednesday, December 23, 2009

kris


as i stay awake at night,
all i can think is you,
the way you hold me,
the way you touch me,
as i stay awake,
all i smell is you,
the smell of your colonge is seeping from my pillow,
soaking into my skin,
as i stay awake,
all i can think is how much i love you


i love u kris

Saturday, December 19, 2009

i just call you mine by Martina McBride


I pinch myself sometimes to make sure I'm not in a dream
That's how it seems
I close my eyes and breathe in the sweetest moments I've ever known
It feels like home
And here I am I want to be your everything
There you are
Turning winter into spring

And everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're standing ovation after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
Yeah
I just call you mine

I fall apart
Just a word from you just somehow seems to fix
Whatever's wrong
Oh, you reach into the weakest moments
And remind me that I'm strong
You've got to know
I'd be a fool not to see you even worse
To forget that you're more than I deserve

Cause everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're standing ovation after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine

Nothing makes sense when you're not here
As if my whole world disappears
Without you what's the point of it

Cause everyone who sees you
Always want's to know you
And everyone who knows you
Always have a smile
You're the dream that I've been chasin' after years of waiting
For a chance to finally shine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine
Everyone calls you amazing
I just call you mine

Friday, December 18, 2009

i miss you

i miss you when you leave,

i wish we could be together,

i miss you forever,

even when we’re with each other

i love you

i love you,

but i guess its not enough,

i love you,

but i guess i loved you to much,

i love you,

but you dont back,


i trusted you,

with my heart but i guess it was to much,

you ripped it out and tore it appart.

suicide

you make me cry,

it feels like suicide,

i dont know why,

you choose to die,


you choose to hurt me,

you choose to kill,

but most of all,

you choose how to make me feel

change

if i could change myself in anyway,

i would change my eyes, nose, hair, skin color, and nails,

the change in personality would be humor and sarcasim,

but it would never happen,

because im the unloved and unlucky

why

you make me feel like there is no reason to be here,

you make me want to cry,

you make me feel like im nothing,

you make me feel like my heart will never mend,

you make me feel like i dont deserve you,

but you dont deserve me

after you

like a crystal shattering beneath the floor,

color is blood,

blood dark as night,

soft as dark velvet,

blowing through the wind like a feather,

smell is so delicate,

smells like the ripest rose,

this must be the black rose

you

as i stay awake at night,

all i can think is you,

the way you held me,

the way you touched me,

as i stay awake,

all i smell is you,

the smell of your colonge is seeping from my pillow,

soaking into my skin,

as i stay awake,

i stare at your picture,

realizing you were gone.....

forever