Monday, January 9, 2012

love? lust?

Words on my tongue,
Words that want to come out,
Words that I want to say.
Is it time?
Is it too soon?
The feeling is real,
But are you?
Is this real?
Is it a joke?
No its real.
Should I say it?
Just going to bite the bullet,
Just going to take the bull by the horns,
Now please don't run,
please don't be scared.

love me not

You say you love me,
You say you love her,
You can't love us both,
Does she know?
Did you tell her?
About me?
About us?
I loved you.
I missed you.
You lied.
You cheated.
Now you love her.
But its ok because...
I love him.

Friday, January 6, 2012

a heart

Not a life or a death.

I give you a heart.
It is a symbol of love.
It promises serenity.

It will stay close
like a blanket.
It will make your life full of happiness.

I am trying to be caring.

Not a freak or obsessive.

I give you a heart.
Its love will hold you,
be there for you and help you
as we are,
for as long as we are.

Take it.
Its a gift,
if you like.
If you want.
Its sent will send you flying,
from hell to heaven.

Monday, December 12, 2011


my head and heart have been hurt time and time again, but this is different, this isn't hurt this is like a drilling like a pounding, please stop we yell please go away, but who listens to the cries? to the lies we tell to keep us alive. to keep us running. to keep us living for one more day. no knowing if its our last. why won't anyone come save us? why do they ignore?
we yell every night we scream and scream for help. hoping for the one day that they say its ok. please come take us away please bring us away. she lays on her bed thinking with the knife in her hand. should i? it needs to stop all the hurting all the lies all the cries. her sister walks in and asks what are you doing? she looks up with tears in her eyes and says its ok baby ill always be right here. she points to the small childs heart and smiles. the little girl looks up and says no you can't you need to stay with me. the little child cries and hopes she got through to her big sister. she lays on the bed with her big sister and watches. the girl gets up crying and puts the knife back on her dads work bench and lays back down with her sister crying themselves to sleep as she drifts off to sleep she keeps whispering to her baby girl youll never lose your big sister. ill be right here to help you through this. we will get out someday.


Eyes open,
Open wide,
You open up and take,
My life,
My hopes,
My dreams,
But most of all,
You take my mom.
The one that gave me life,
I wish you could see,
Could feel,
Could see the hurt you cause,
Could feel the pain you left behind.

Wednesday, November 30, 2011


You were just a dream just a light in my heart but then you came out and started talking to me but I never would have known that this is where we would be today that we could be this for me "we" were just a dream nothing that I could ever touch just in my head and dreams but now "we" to me is a reality its my life my heart and my dreams for me "we" is my life as I know it now

on top

We are the 2 that most people never would have seen together... but we proved tot hem that we are strong enough... that we can make it that its our life and this is how we want to live it...don't you ever forget that it won't be over we will always have haters but then we will also have lovers...we will go through everyone and come out on top...on top of the haters...we will walk to the top...we will stand on the world with our arms in the air and fist waving telling them we told you...they don't want to believe? let 'em we will make it...thorough all else we will survive....WE WILL COME OUT ABOVE ALL ELSE. i love you babe