Monday, April 5, 2010

Have you ever loved someone so much you just couldn't let them go?
This is how I feel now, So here's the story
I love my cousin very very much but she is moving away,
We have been through A LOT together and I find out she is moving but not from here I found out from her best friend,
I asked her about it and found out that it was true,
but i still don't understand why she didn't tell me herself,
It hurt me a lot to know we went through so much together but she is leaving,
It's her choice but she is leaving all her family and friends,
But what for?
Can anyone explain this to me because I don't understand it?
It hurt me so badly to the point she didn't want to talk to me when I wanted to talk to her,
I feel like I'm getting stabbed in the back because I help her but what do I get in return?
But her running away when I want to talk,
Although I am hurt and upset with her i still do love her because she will always be my family

1 comment:

  1. cuzz i love you with all my heats this is the story..... one morning i was o.k but i was not feeling the best at all and then I got to the bus stop i felt really crappy i could tell that that day would not be the best at all.... Aaron got mad at me for calling him something after he called me something for along time now he has been beating on me and everything... I know it do not sound good right now cuzz.. my family is having problems once again and i told them if anything else happened then I would leave and never return they did not believe that I had the guts to do it..... I did not know I had the guts to do it ether but here I am on the erg of leaving... I know one month is not a lot cuzz... But people tell me all the time that this is unstable that i need to fallow my heart that I need to do what I think is right.... and if you loved me enuff you will try to understand the pain im going threw right now... I dont want to leave you but there is a lot going threw my mind that I can not take it any more so I have desides to jsut leave and not to return maybe .. just maybe people will see what is going on ones a dear loved one leaves... forever.. maybe Ill come back some day we never know.. i know this hurts you cuzz... It hurts me to.. but we need to be strong... ok... with all we got please for me and for the family please stay strong..... I talked to alot of people I got alot of help that will help me out with this.... lets talk more and I love that you are not afraid to show how you feel on here,..... i love you my cuzz and my friend and loved one... when I leave I wont be gone...for I will still be with you for every day you apart.... Ill be with you in your heart.. <3
    I am sorry im leaving I know its heart braking </3 But please try and understand.. im not doing it for any one or anything only for me.